Kelly Gibbons, artist and writer, about me

Monday, January 05, 2004

Today I am back to work and I am trying to organize things but I am a bit scattered. I have come back to this post about a dozen times, and have finally decided to just go with the random thoughts today. That's me--some days I am focused and know exactly what I want to say, one clear idea--other days I'm scattered and all over the place, but some of my best ideas come when I'm like this. So I thought I would stop fighting and go with it.

I'm glad I was finally able to add comments. It's fun to see that others have been here. My next goal for this blog is to add a counter. However, I am still debating if I actually want one. I don't want to get wrapped up in the numbers, but I am curious. I'm afraid I'll become obsessed with it, and even if I promise myself that I will only look at the numbers occasionally, just for fun, I don't know if I could stick to that. I don't want to spend my days checking, hmmm..that might add up the numbers...Great...1000 hits and 998 would be mine. I don't want to spoil my fun by worrying about hits.

Boy have the tables turned. A few months ago sharing was my biggest fear, and I am happy to say that my fear of has greatly diminished. For a while there I was worrying so much about what others would think and it was hard to write. When I started writing for myself again it became fun and much easier. I write about what I like and what interests me, if someone finds what I write useful, entertaining, enlightening or whatever I am tickled pink (sometimes giddy*) but that is not why I write, it is just an effect of the writing.

(*Seriously-little things make me so happy. I get so excited over the smallest things, well to me they're not small, but other people think I'm odd because I get so excited. I can't help it--in my book small steps are worthy of celebration)

Today made me realize once again how much I want to be a writer. This is the job for me! Even though I have a lot of work to do I was excited this morning. I couldn't wait to start. Everyone else is moaning and groaning about school or work, but I am happy to be back to work. I am so happy and grateful that I have this opportunity, and I plan on working my butt off to keep it this way. Happiness is a strong motivator.

Wanting things is not bad, but I always seem to want everything at once. I also want everything to happen fast. Today I decided I want something else, so I'll just add it to the ever growing list. I want to go to the National association for Women Writer's conference in Texas next month. I have been reading about it on other sites for awhile and never thought much about it, but today when I came across it again I had a strong desire to go. Problem: $. It is next month and with airfare, hotel stay, meals, and conference fees there is no rational way I could swing it. I know this, yet I still want to go. I don't have to go. I just want to go because I think it will be fun.

posted by Kelly @ 1/05/2004 08:31:00 AM

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