I have had the week from hell. It has kept me from writing here. Sad personal things. Things that I won't write about here, because that's just not me. I'll survive; I always do. Things that seemed absolutely horrible on Saturday when they happened, feel a bit better even now. A smile here, a laugh there, and a happy memory do make things better. Sorry for the "cryptic-ness" (nice new word, huh?), but that's all your getting.

I wasn't even going to write today, but Angela (who hasn't written regularly in who knows, forever?) thought I needed to write. Just kidding my friend, thanks for the laugh!

I was inspired to write today by the Mondo Beyondo List I read about here (she got it from here).

In case you don't want to click away I explain the concept of a Mondo Beyondo List. Long story short: it's a wish list of all the things you would love to have happen, even the things that you think might not ever happen. It's a fantasy list of all the things you want, even the over the top stuff. I have written these list before, and at the time I was writing, I thought I was a crazy fool for even writing some things down. The funny thing is that most of these things (even the over the top ones) have actually happened. I love these kinds of lists, and I am a firm believer in writing it down and "wishing with effort" to bring dreams to reality.

So here's my crazy wish list (I can't wait to check back here in a few years to see how many have happened):

I want to take art lessons again. I want to learn and grow as an artist, so I can work as an artist.

I want to complete the edits on my novel, and I want to find a publisher for it. I would also like to find an agent, so I can really sell this thing.

I want to travel to Paris, France and Germany with my family. I want to climb the Eiffel tower, and sit at a cafe across the river and paint. I want to explore castles.

I want to work from home again. That was scary to write, because I do love my job, but I really loved working from home. I want to be a writer and an artist full time.

I want to write novels, and write and/or illustrate children's books.

I want to own a house at the beach. I see myself owning a lovely little cottage at the seashore where I can relax and look at the ocean, and sit in the warm sand.

I want to open a book store/ coffee shop. I've written about this before, and I even went as far as contacted someone about a rental, but that's as far as I got.

I want my cartoon alter ego, SunnyK, to be famous. I want her image to be as popular as Garfield the Cat.

I want to rid myself of scarcity thinking once and for all. I want to know that I will absolutely always be provided for. I want abundance thoughts to stomp out all my negative thoughts and fears about not having enough. I will continue to say that I believe in infinite abundance, and I want to really truly believe it.

I want to believe in myself (and my writing and artwork) all the time, not just during good moments. I want to stop being afraid and stop lacking confidence in myself.

I want close friendships. I want friends like I had when I was a kid--The kind I shared secrets with, and couldn't wait to hang around with; the kind who I did things with; the kind who just stopped by to hang out. I haven't had a friend like that in a long time, and I miss it terribly.

That's all I can manage today. I might add more later. It's your turn now. Start wishing, and my greatest wish for you is that every wish comes true.